We are too Earthbound,

The devotional places perspectives too apt to be true.
I'm not in the most pleasant of moods right now with all the circumstances going around. (Lack of sleep makes a person cranky too)
Well, no one said it was ever easy.

And like Audrie said, this place is dead so I shall revive it...soon enough.
For starters:
- Met up with the galpalzxzz after a gazillion years, yay! ♥
- Girlfriend's birthday with Chin, Car, Nico and her mummsie (Happy birthday once again my dearest!) ♥
- Scholarship apps + Interview with lunch with Girlfriend and the gang
- Juggling a lot of work
- Xiuyun and Jill's farewell dinner with Mindcafe and White Bar for night out fun :)
- Silly office jumpshots and in between lunch adventures teehee
- Masquerade D&D with pretty handmade masks and dressy dressessss with night out thereafter with the booked out boy
- Jester + King silly outfits at the office lobby tending to the booth, hahaha @ us

Possibly having another dinner with the girls soon + Carren's baptism (really want to go give my moral support!) + the boy's POP, yes finally ♥ + Crashing Chin and Noreen's restaurant with Yikai and catching up + MacDonald happy meals during office lunch hours

A lot of pictures to be put up :}
And for the sake of screaming out: I need a massage!!!
I think I've been spending too much time with everyone and my work, thou shalt not neglect thy self.
Can't wait for the weekend even though our plans may not fall through, ah :(

Spot on,

Perhaps it's clairvoyance.

Fragments to dust,

Life is very, very fragile.
So daintily beautiful, it gets whisked away in a blink of an eye.
May God's peace be with you, and I pray for strength and comfort for you to overcome the grieve.

Sunshine

We could grow up together, defining the boundaries of the countryside.
We could smile like we mean it, lighting up the whole town.
They say, summer doesn't last forever.
But what goes out will and must come again.

Train ride,

Just a minute I was subtly judging her mismatched frumpy sleeveless top with her prized Prada tote.

Then came a bunch of Primary School kids toddling onto the train carriage, speaking of their big dreams filled with bombastic car brands and animal farms.The next thing we knew was that the unspoken silence brought about a series of choked giggles and amused glance exchanges.Why stretch our differences apart when we can pull them together while taking joy in such little things. Not a word exchanged but a connection to remember, it made my long train journey to the East :)

Because all girls are precious,

"I believe in pink, that laughing is the best calorie burner and that happy girls are the prettiest girls."
- Audrey Hepburn

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle of Life;

We're caught in this awkward loophole in time where we're no longer treated as kids yet not matured enough to be considered as adults.
This transition is rather perplexing at times, like fattened hamsters scrambling out of their outgrown wheels, only to fall through the gaps.
On a side note, your tulips are still alive!
Even though it has been (barely) a week, and the petals are dropping one by one ♥

And congrats to all the A level graduates, no matter what God has blessed you with, be contented with them :)
Like always, opportunities may go by but others will come knocking on your door so stop shutting yourself out and go get some sunlight!

Wise choices do pay.

Grab me tight,

I realize how such a wimp I am when it comes to changes.
More than the superficiality of drastically chopping your hair locks to a short crop, or painting a bold new coat of nail lacquer for a special occasion.
Changes define life, as simple as it sounds, and the next decade looming in front of me is filled with so many decisions and spaces in between to fill.
David Russell once said that the hardest part about life is really to know which bridges to cross and which to burn.
You parallel it to your life choices, and you somewhat think that it makes a lot of sense.
The world's your oyster, you say.
(Other the fact that you can't keep on burning bridges because the world is round and they'll eventually come and haunt you in the end if you keep burning the wrong bridges)
(Burning bridges is such a paradox!)

I guess my only gripes about such changes is that emotional attachment and familiarity you develop, even for routines.
I've grown fond of my routines, I wished kindergarten never ended and my parents never had to leave me on weekdays for work.
Now that I've graduated from IB, I wished I had cherished my time with my classmates more, now that we're slowly drifting away when everyone's schedule is so extremely conflicting.
I wished I never had to transfer my girlfriend out of AC, I wished my parents never had to go through a rough patch, I wished my bestest friend never had to be whisked away for NS, I wished I could just stay nineteen forever (but I said that for every year since I was 7)
It's only natural that the above list is non-exhausive if I could go on but I guess the point here is really the contentment that keeps me going form year to year, day to day.
It's more than a phase, and it's more than mere adaptation out of your comfort zone.
It's difficult to accept these changes at the start, and it may be painful to deal with in the process but it produces a new you.
The fear of making one small step in your life that could affect the prospects of your future.
The stability and security you redraw from your daily routines, with the amount of emotional deposits you bank in every day, assuming the non-existence of familiarity breeding contempt.
It's hard to accept circumstances as they come along, when you know you could have taken an alternative road and things could have turned out much better than expected.
We hate the unknown, yet we love being attracted to it's mysterious realms.
And these choices define who we are, and render us to depend on our spiritual mind.
As cliche as it sounds, Life is really just a journey that you really want to say out loud that "I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith" 2 Timothy 4:7
These changes may seem insurmountable or impossible to accept, but life's never a bed of roses.
And to enjoy the beauty of the rose, why not accept these thorns to appreciate it's true value?
We're here with a bigger purpose in Life, why spoil the full pictures with these minor hurdles along the way.

Inevitably there will be times in your life when you feel deep down in the dungeons or tossed down into a well where the sight of the sky above does not heighten your hopes. There will be times where you'll cry yourself to sleep and red eyes are yours to keep. There will be times where you feel neglected and question your self-worth. There will be times where you felt every inch of effort was worth it one moment and your hopes are dashed the next, or times where you feel so alone even in a crowd of many.

Sure, life slaps us blows but let's take pride in all the little joys of life.
Waking up early in the morning only to find out it's a Saturday, taking off your heels/socks after a long hard day of work or even that one person who laughs with you when you just told a really bad joke and no one gets it but him/her :)

2 Timothy 1:7 tells us "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."
Now as we embark on these major transitions in the upcoming decade of our lives, let's just keep trusting in Him and seek comfort in His words.

Summer rush,

I could not see a leaf on the tree,

And now I could count them, one, two, three,

Count them over and over,

Leaf from leaf like lips apart,

Like lips apart for a lover.

And the hillside beats with my beating heart,

And the apple-tree blushes all over,

And the May bough touched me and made me start,

And the wind breathes warm like a lover.

- The Milkmaid's poem, Sydney Thompson Dobell