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Keep fighting, keep the faith.

Keep fighting, keep the faith.
So many people have been through it and they know how you feel.
It's seeing what the future has to offer and what His plans for us/you that gives us the will to move on, to push on with Life.
This applies to many, many souls out there so don't you dare give up on yourself because somewhere out there, there's someone special praying for you to pick you up and get back on the pavement.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR 12 HOURS MORE YESSS THE PROSPECTS OF WEEKENDS HAS NEVER BEEN SO EXTREMELY MOTIVATING.

Au revoir,

Ariel's farewell (Au Revoir Ariel!♥) with the girls + 2 guys, dinner with Girlfriend and Carren ♥♥♥ and work has been going well on well.
Pictures up here soon, I think.
It was really good to catch up with everyone, sharing problems and all :)
I know I haven been very open about my feelings but thanks to those who asked because it really means a lot.
I know I've gotta be better than that, in-camp calls have been very muffled and thousands of commotion going on in the background but I'm still so comforted from that spare few minutes, and more importantly on the fact that we both have God.

♥

" If I had my life to live over, I’d dare to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax; I’d limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies."
- Nadine Stair

Do we all dare to do the same to be different?

Love,

My dear Girlfriend, I hope you're coping well! You have to stay strong, just because, because :)

"The past is always going to be deep inside our souls. You can’t run from it, you can’t hide from it. You just have to accept it and remember that you can’t bring the good memories back, but when you’re having one of those days, you can sit back and reminisce on the times you had and the feelings they brought."

"You've got to risk love. It doesn’t mean that you’re never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love." - Ghosts of Girlfriend's past

Sunday,

Sunday send-offs are so achingly beautiful.

Life,

Have you ever though of life as a musical and you just singing your heart out in the shower or dancing in the carpark not caring one bit if the security guard spots you out as a looney?
Everyone needs that bit of escape once in a while, and it feels really good to just walk out of the back gate greeting the guards and thanking the last person who extended his arm to keep the gate open to save you the trouble of toggling the greyish button an arm's length away.

The week has been bliss, starting off with Chinese New Year and his first long book out :)
Tacky Chinese dinners, family time, time with my girlsss ♥♥♥♥ (Happy birthday Sandra once again I need to find your old pictures to put up HAHAHA), catching up with my Girlfriend ♥♥♥♥ in between work (please take extra care, I'll definitely see you soon!!) and my colleagues who never fail to cheer me up during/after work!

The future certainly is dauting at times but not overpoweringly so, our prayers and foundation in the Lord will sustain us through. I don't believe so, but I know so.
Thanks for all the few minute rush calls, prayers and 5am shot conversations, your family and loved ones are supporting you all the way even though training is getting very tough.
"I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine" - Ephesians 3:20
Trust in the Lord always, and this applies to all of you out there too :)

Content,

"Why it is that she gets all the attention, and still isn't happy? If I had half of what she gets, I would probably be on top of the world."

Contentment.

Dedication,

From Sandra's tumblr, dedicated to my special Girlfriend:

People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn't. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart is the toughest. Staying right where you are, waiting for your heart to be ripped apart is much harder than walking away and starting anew.

Grey's

"I stand here, not optimistic, not hopeful. Yes, not optimistic, not hopeful, but very sure."-Preston Burke's wedding vows (Grey's Anatomy)
Wah so romantic, okay back to my sleep, MC for the day while my friend's assembling his new wife faraway.

Edit:
YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS

Shoutout,

You're the coffee to my morning, you're the coffee to my morning, you're the coffee to my morning.

Thanks for all the in-camp calls and taking turns to pray each other even though we sparingly get a few minutes sometimes, FRIDAY :)
And I'm falling sick :(

And here's a shoutout to my special Girlfriend:
Take heart, keep the faith going.
No matter what, just keep praying and know that your girlfriends are here for you all the way yeah? ♥♥♥♥
It may seem very hard now but even as you look back next time, I'm sure there's so much joy to give thanks for :)
I'm keeping you in my prayers, extra hard and for your health too.
I pray for that anxiety to be translated to peace to fill your heart and for the clarity of mind and wisdom to be discerning! Sending my love :) YOU WILL PULL THROUGH.

Journal,

Our journal is my sanctuary, and I'm very thankful for that.
Work's been good, after work even better :)

Reveal,

Who comes here anywayyyyy, reveal yourselves haha I found my ancient password for the counter hits and they are so high.

Hide and seek,

One more day and back to work, and the days will zoom by very quickly :)
Plus, I get to see my AC girls on Thursday yessss ♥♥
Because they are those who can really, really cheer up very much :)

Imogen Heap - Hide and seek

Everyone's familiar only with the last part, in Jason Derulo's Whatcha Say.

Update again,

Just hoping maybe you're somewhere walking after midnight searching for me,

1. Cut my hair
2. Retail therapy
3. New specks
4. Dental check up
5. More work clothes
6. Videos transcripting
7. Meeting minutes to be compiled
8. Settling my schedule for next week
9. Spring clean my room before the festive season
10. Wait for Friday to come and sweep me off my feet yay

Oh, and of course my scholarship essays and USP.
If I get in, I'll stay local.
I'm considering Minor Cultural Studies locally or International Relations if I go UK.
So now I'm waiting for NUS's reply because I received all my UK offers, I'm utterly confused, still praying about it :)
4 years Vs. 3 years.

I started a journal yesterday, it keeps me sane and a perfect avenue to wave down my thoughts.
It really helps when you're not here to tolerate my nonsensical nonsense and eat sandy sushi with me on the beach singing Unwell by matchbox twenty totally out of key.

Classical country is so amazing, Patsy Cline is quite a legend :)

Something about this song just draws you in.

Can't wait to meet the girls for Sandra's birthday (yay!) and my AC girlssss with my Girlfriend yay so much to update you about I hope I won't whine you to death :}

And no more waking up at 3 am plus in the morning, and no more bizarre dreams please.
Very puzzling.

This isn't a cryptic post.

Journalling,

Today's just the second, and that nudging empty feeling still lingers with that sour feeling in my tummy. Yesterday I started the journal, you're my ending note. The wax sealed golden letters await me every morning as I wake up from bed, the black outline of the numerals and the shaky handwriting in the inside causes me to quiver slightly with the sincerity that pours out with each character. Toasted waffles from London just fills me up with such warmth while the parka holds on to your traces, and this makes me cry.

This will not be a place for any empty feelings we hold, but the cherish of the memories time will unfold. These wooden frames around our faces will not cap the boundaries of time, the beauty of the years ahead will sublime.

On a side note, thanks Sean for the conversation this morning, really helped to cheer me up :)
Esp when I think of you and Kat together! God bless you two, too :)
And to Jeanie who understands me and feels the same way too, we shall be stronggg.

Goodbyes,

Today, Tekong stole my bestest best friend.
Goodbyes are so sad :(
Shit this is harder than I thought it would be.
But the prospect of Chinese New Year has never been so exciting :}

♥

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

We're growing up so, so fast.
We're like rain to puddles, coffee to mornings.
We'll trust God to unfold His plan slowly and it'll soon be revealed in time.
Slowly but surely.
He really knows how to send timely reminders and I'm immensely grateful for that.
Peace and Patience is a strong combination.

Hold tightly to what is eternal, but loosely to what is temporal.